Simple and to the point, Victoria Milan, offers some pretty snazzy features.
One being the 'panic button' and yes, it's exactly what it sounds like.
He gets upset if I ask him about it...we're in freakin counseling and he... Maybe it's those things that I miss the most and am seeking out. I've got such a horrible selfish wife you wouldn't believe she has turned every second of my life into a bitter experience and nobody is to blame but myself. Now that my baby is 17, we finally have time for us. She is very caring and friendly with everyone and tends to thier needs. He doesn't want me to do anything but stay at home. We've had talk after talk about how I need more physical affection and he claims he's crazy in love with me.
Just when you get to that stage in you life when you can take a breath, you realize you feel empty. Here I am lying in bed writing this and another night by myself. He's asleep in a single bed with our 9 year old daughter. This morning, the need to be held was so overwhelming, I didn't think I could bear it.
I've had that feeling many times but foolishly chose to ignore it, looking back I can see the times where I failed to trust my own judgement, those where I... I took my girls kayaking then I cooked dinner and am now sitting by myself. Then I wonder why I constantly crave communication from someone else. Last weekend I cooked a special dinner...candles...trying to rekindle what we once had. I told him I had prepared a special dinner for him. and playful and I still look at her breasts and *** when she's near me. without even realizing it, I went down the same path as my father.
We have fallen into a rut and the excitement of the early days have faded and the connection we shared seems to have disappeared. During this time, I totally devoted my life to being a loyal wife and a good mother. Someone who is 1,000 miles away but always makes me feel special. We got married 1.5 years ago and the second we got back from our honeymoon all affection and intimacy stopped like a light switch.
Is it even possible once we've drifted so far apart? If you don't have that special thing from day one chances are you get older and realize what that empty spot really is. Over the past 15 years of marriage, but particularly the last 10, I've felt... Things have moved on and I feel like posting again. When I last posted I mentioned how my wife had gone from no sex, to no kissing and really no...